October 10, 2010

Happy Birthday Process!

Woo-hoo! An anniversary! October 10th, 2005, marked my first post. My initial intent was to document my process as an artist. No, that's not quite true. My intent was that the blog would serve as a document of the artwork I made as a result of that process, i.e., a picture blog with a few sentences posted under each finished painting or artwork, more or less briefly describing my thought process as it related to the work. A mini-statement, if you will. (A plan, I might add, that had I stuck with, would have bailed me out of the recent statement fiasco of 2010.) A mere twelve days later marked my first pity party post where I let my guard down: I had broken a toe while training for a marathon and received two rejection letters in one day. It was also in this post that I revealed, that on occasion, I have doubts and insecurities, and that as confident as I think I am, I do, in fact, relish questioning my capabilities and admit to being a sensitive artist. Five years later, I still like to question my capabilities and I am still a sensitive artist. But other than that, much has changed in five years.

Then: Lived and worked in Culver City, California
Now: Live and work in Nashville, Tennessee
Then: Worried a lot about if I would ever have another show.
Now: Worry a little about whether I will ever have another show.
Then: Obsessive and copious amount of works on paper, large paintings.
Now: Smaller paintings, prone to being obsessively detailed.
Then: Fear of impasto
Now: Love impasto
Then: Team Fang & Fife
Now: Otto
Then: Abstraction, Technicolor palette
Now: Landscape? Figures? Colors from Nature? Abstraction?
Then: Married, Adjunct Art Faculty
Now: Single, Speed reading, "What Color is Your Parachute?"

And so forth and so on. The blog still serves as an archive of what I was thinking or doing- who I was on a particular date. I don't revisit the posts except if I'm trying to remember something- like what events might have triggered a painting, or see what a painting looked like before it transmogrified before my very eyes.

Some other things have changed- some good, some difficult, some challenging. There's also a realization that life is short, and it's never too late. I should really hook up the nice stereo system and sell the uncomfortable sofa, soon.

The blog knows all.
Happy Birthday Process.


Steven LaRose said...

Interesting. My first post, five years ago as well, will be on the 28th of this month. The blogoshphere seemed like a big scary place with unlimited potential back then. What I can't figure out is how small it got. Where are all the other art-as-lifers who paint? You have no idea how happy I am that you do what you do.

ps. another new thing from five years ago word verification

M.A.H. said...

word. thanks.

Carla said...

Happy Birthday Process. Great new look. I'm continually amazed by how gracefully you share your art and life. I love that first post.

M.A.H. said...

Graceful. "Snort". but seriously, thanks. We'll see how the next 5 go.

Anonymous said...

Congratulations MAH. I'm glad I found you on the inter nets.

M.A.H. said...

Thanks Elaine. Likewise, and that goes for the lot of you ^ plus some.

Chris Rusak said...

Hey congratulations. Your then/now list made me chuckle... "Fear of impasto." - great band name.